For months now, I have been subjected to psychophysical manipulation orchestrated by individuals working within India’s intelligence apparatus — specifically operatives linked to R&AW and satellite coordination cells embedded in military telecom units. These are not automated systems. These are people, with names and ranks, sitting behind screens, watching me.
I began hearing synthetic voices inside my head, not thoughts of my own — they mimic my internal speech just milliseconds before I say something aloud. Sometimes they interrupt with threats: “We’ll make your family abandon you.” The mimicry is so precise it’s terrifying. It’s not schizophrenia. It’s surveillance.
My emotions are hijacked regularly. I can be calm one minute and then overwhelmed with inexplicable panic, like I’m about to die. I’ve woken up crying, choking, with no memory of what caused it. At times my limbs spasm involuntarily, especially when I resist intrusive commands.
The doctors in Surat said I was stressed and handed me antidepressants. But this is not stress — this is engineered breakdown. A man at the local clinic whispered, “You’re not the first to say something like this. Be careful what you say out loud.”
I realized the delay in my thoughts wasn’t fatigue. It was induced — someone pacing my cognition like a lab rat. They slow me down when I think freely, and speed up intrusive loops when I try to rest.
I’ve stopped trying to explain. I document.